“Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.”-William James

There are so many things I wish I could say to some people, and there are others I do not wish to speak to at times because silence says a lot more than what words can, for example ‘I dislike you very much at the moment’ or ‘I’m so sorry’, sometimes things are said in silence just by the vibes given off from our bodies.
It’s the moments where silence can’t speak for me that I am afraid of, I’m not afraid of what the person or people will think, I’m afraid of the reaction, whether they run in the opposite direction or they rip my head off just for something I’ve said.
It’s these moments that keep me lying awake at night wondering what might have happened if I had of said that one sentence that could change everything.
Things I wish I could say too people:
- Hold me, and please don’t let go
- I miss you
- Just let it go
- I really don’t want to be just friends
- I wish you’d just stop and listen to what you’re saying Sadly I don’t have the guts too really say any of these things to anyone, because I’m not that person, physically I would rather just watch people be happy with themselves and say what they want. This doesn’t necessarily mean that I am unhappy, quite the opposite, I’m happy when everyone else is happy, I can’t stand conflict, and most of the things that I wish I could say will start conflict. Therefore it is easier too just kick back and watch things unfold, sometimes its pretty interesting too.

YUCK

through out my schooling years i have attended two High Schools, a Primary school and an Infants school, and at all of them the walls of the sick bay are always painted a light shade of blue, the chairs are plastic deck chair looking things, with nasty green seet covers that are so lumpy you question how old they are, and it always smells of bandaids and dodgy disinfectant. WHY?
Is there some standard of sick bay that says "this room must scream sick children and abnormal vomit", I'm sorry but the whole colour scheme and atmosphere reminds me of vomit, this may be due to the exaduration in cartoons, vomit being green and lumpy, hello  sick bay chairs. You would have thought the rule 'blue and green should never be seen unless theres something in between' would apply, but no the interior designer of school sick bays missed the memo.
I want a nice neutral colour scheme how about white? nice light airy and it doesnt scream vomit.

The last swimming carnival

well my schooling years are flying by, and this year i only have 9 months left, so it makes sense that id make the most of it. I would like to introduce you to the latest female house captain of the Hungerford Hornets..ME!!
I am the least sporty person you could meet, so it makes no sense that I, of all people, would make sports captain, however based on high-school politics, it's a popularity contest, and that's how i got house captain (I'm not even popular, but i was the only year 12 that put my hand up).

This years swimming carnival was the last one i will ever attend, it was also the first one I've attended since about year 9. Sports carnivals seem to bring out school and team spirit in everyone, that's what i like about them, everyone gets excited and competitive, its just a great day out and i forgot that when i moved schools.

Here are some photos of the day and some of the outfits.

“Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.”-Unknown.

I haven't posted much lately , because i haven't felt all that inspired, and that makes me sad. But after this weekend i have found my inspiration to write again and post more, I want to be a Photojournalist, and I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel,I can do work experience with a Photojournalist with a newspaper in Bathurst, which is exciting because it will allow me to actually experience the industry and sort of give me an advantage when it comes to possibly getting a cadet ship or job in the industry.  So that's one thing I'm excited about writing for, the other is my new crazy project that involves my friends, an inflatable pool and random locations around the hunter.

Truth be told, the recipe for an amazing afternoon, in the summer sun, is six people in a kiddie paddle pool.